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aLL aBouT mE

i aM mE aNd nO oNe eLse. aN aNiMaL-LoVinG, eMotiOnaL cHoCoHoLiC wHo cRiEs dUriNg MoViEs, eSpEciALLy wHeN tHe prOtAgOniSt LoSeS tHeiR LoVed OnEs. i aM cRaZy abOuT eVeRyThiNg tHaT maKeS mE hAppY, bE iT mY faMiLy, fRiEnDs oR a wArM cUp oF eArL gReY. mY LiFe hAs bEEn oNe MajOr dRaMa, sO LeT's hOPe tHe dRaMa cOntiNuEs oN...

mY LoVeS

i LoVe: My fAmiLy; mY tRuE fRiEnDs; aLL cUtE fUrrY cReaTuRes; cOOkinG + bAkiNg aNd eaTinG gOOd fOOd; diScOvEriNg NeW pLaCeS tO eAt aNd tO cHiLL oUt; FuNNy cOmEdiEs; fOrEiGn fiLMs; ChOcOLaTeS; ChAi LaTTe; hAviNg a gOOd LauGh; sHoPPinG; gOOd sExY SuPPoRtiVe bRas; cOLd SunDaY MoRniNgS; wArM sHowErS; gLuGGinG dOwN a iCe-ChiLLeD bEEr oN a HoT niGHt.

mY HaTeS

i haTe: nEGaTiViTy; LiZaRds; LyiNg & cHeAtinG aSShOLeS; mALe cHaUviNiStiC piGs; pOinTLeSS diEtS; HuMouRLeSS bUggERs; tRaVeLLinG iN aErOpLaNeS; pAriS hiLtOn; bEinG bRoKe; sUffEriNg fRoM a miNoR iNsOmNia; bAd BrAs; cAnTonEsE MoVieS dUbbEd iN maNdAriN; bEiNg aLoNe.

JuKie BoXie

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WisHy fiSHy

♥VeRa WaNg GLaM PriNcEss

♥sPoRtsGiRL EiLy RuffLe dReSS

♥sNoW wAsh dEniM LeGGiNgS

♥a CeRaMic ToUrMaLiNe CuRLiNg iRoN

♥a pAiR oF gOrGeOuS TaN bRoGuEs

♥a pAiR hiGh wAiStEd fAdEd dEniM sHoRtS

CuRRenT cRaZeS

♥aNyThiNg wiTh fRiLLs + rUffLeS...!!!

♥AnYtHInG ThAt'S GiRLiE cHiC fLoRaL...!!!

♥cHuNkY pEeP-tOeS hEELs

♥tHiCk sTraPPy pLatFoRm sAndaLs

♥dEniM LeGGinGs

♥BiG SeXy CuRLS/wAvEs

♥ViNtaGe SuNNiEs

♥ViNtAgE TaN LeaThEr sLinGs

♥M.A.C

CuRReNt eWWWs + bLeHs

ø ...nOthiNg

ø aT

ø tHiS

ø vErY

ø mOmEnT...!!!

tHaNkiEs

FiRsT oF aLL, mAnY tHaNks tO mY cHubbY LiN fOr iNsPiRinG mE tO cReAte mY veRy oWn bLoG wiThiN oNe niGht.

aNd tHanKs tO MiKe, FoR bEiNg mY tEcHnO hErO. iF iT wAsN't fOr HiM, mY fiRsT bLoG wOuLd nEveR hAve eXiSteD.

a BiG tHaNks tO "mAdeLiNe_tN" fOr hEr bAseCoDeS.

aNd oF cOuRsE, fiNaLLy... hEhE... ThaNKs tO MySeLf!!! mY dEtErmiNatioN aNd paTieNcE haVe fiNaLLy Paid oFF
fOr cReaTiNg tHiS piNk+mOO-FeStEd bLogsKin wHiCh i oH LoVe sO mUcH, fRoM sCraTcH!!!

dArLiNkS

a pRinCeSS sMooThiE
cHuBBy LiN
tEh nErDy mAgE
sHeeNa bAnAnA
PoMMiE
DoNg FaNg RiChArD
CiNdY wOnG

bLoGs i LoVe

CaTaLiNa, a BeAuTy bLoG
cHaiGyaRu
bUbZ bEaUtY
KaNdEE tHe mAkE-uP aRtiSt
deLiCiOuS aSiaN fOOd
rAsA MaLaYsiA
TarTeLette
CuPcAkE bAkEsHoP bY cHoCkYLiT
ThE fResH LoaF
ThE kNeAd fOr bReAd
BrEaD cEtErA
jOy oF bAkiNg

cHaT tO mE!!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

LDR LoW-dOwN bLueS... 0 Messages

hMMM...

yEaP.

iT’s tHaT tiMe aGaiN...

wHeN sUddeNLy tHaT

sTrOnG + uNaVoiDaBLe wAvE

pAiN + sUffOcATioN

miSSinG jiMMy sO gOddAmN mUcH

aNd

wiSHiNg hE cOuLd bE riGht nExT tO mE

riGht nOw

jUsT hiT mE.

LaSt niGhT,

wHeN i gOt hOmE fRoM sENdiNg yOu gUys hOme.

jiMMy LeFt mE a tExt oN mY mObiLe

teLLinG mE

tO cHecK oUt thiS sOng

“aLL i nEEd”

bY tHiS GirL nAmEd

aLySSa BeRnaL

wHeN i rEaChEd hOme.

aNd tOLd Me tHaT

hE dEdiCaTeD tHiS sOng tO mE.

sO i tOOk mY sHowEr aNd hOppEd oNtO bEd

wiTh mY LaPPiE

oN bLoaTeD beLLy.

aNd sEarchEd tHiS sOnG oN yOutUbE.

aNd wHeN i LisTeNeD tO iT

aS i rEaD tHe LyriCs...

i hAd bUcKeTs oF siLeNt tEaRs

jUsT tRicKLinG dOwN mY cHeeKs

LiKe wAteRwOrkS.

I cOuLdn’T sToP iT.

tHe LYriCs tO tHiS sOnG rEaLLy hiT hOme

wiTh mE.

LYRICS:

G, D, Em, C

I thought of you today when I looked up at the sunset in the sky.

Cause when I was still at home that use to be something we loved to see together.

I felt you near today when I watched our favorite movie all by myself.

And then I smiled today when I saw my favorite picture of us.

G, D, Em, C

I know Im so far away from you

But I know I dont have to search high and low to see you again.

G, D, Em, D, C

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.

Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -

Thats all I need..

Its so easy missing you cause youre going through my head a million times a day.

But Im okay when you say youre doing the exact same thing.

I know Im so far away from you

But I know I dont have to search high and low to see you again.

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.

Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -

Thats all I need..

D, Dsus4

Ooooh

Ooooh..

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.

Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -

Thats all I need

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

bEcOs tHaT’s eXaCtLy hOw iT iS,

eVeRyThiNg LiL tHinG rEmiNds mE

...oF hiM.

...oF uS.

...oF tHe pAsT wE sHaRed tOgEtHer iN peRth.

aNd hE’s aLwAys oN miNd.

I’LL bE tHinKinG aBouT hiM.

wOnDeriNg iF hE hAs eAtEn hiS bReKKie, LuNcH oR diNNeR.

aLL tHe LittLe tHinGs.

iF i sEE “sUpErnAtuRaL” oN tV,

i tHiNK oF tHe tiMeS wE uSeD tO wAtcH

tHe sEriEs tOgEthEr iN mY rOOm

wHeN wE wErE sTiLL jUsT tWo siLLy hOusEmaTeS

fALLinG iN LoVe.

tHoUgH iT mAkEs mE sMiLe,

I cAN’t LoOk tHrU mY oLd piCs

oF uS iN pErtH

wiThOuT sHeddiNg a tEaR

cOs

i wiLL rEaLLy sTaRt tO miSS hiM eVeN mOrE,

miSS tHe tiMes wE hAd aNd miSS oUr fRiEnDs.

tHoSe wErE reaLLy pReCioUs mOmEnTs

tHaT jUsT cAn’T bE rEwiNdeD tO LiVe tHrU iT aLL oVeR agAiN.

bUt iT gEts bEttEr wHeN JiMMy caLLs aNd LeT mE kNoW

hE’s tHinKinG tHe sAmE.

aNd teLLinG mE hOw mUcH hE miSSEd mE

oR tHe tHiNGs wE uSeD tO dO tOgEthEr.

LiKe cOOkiNg tOgEthEr, dRinKinG bEEr tOgEthEr

oR jUsT hAng oUt aT hOmE aNd wATcH sOmE TV tOgEthEr.

aLL tHoSe LiTTLe tHinGs.

sO wHeN hE caLLeD mE LaST niGhT,

i wAs aLL sNiffLiNg

wiTh mY cHeeKs

wEt wiTh tEaRs.

I tOLd hiM hOw mUcH i LoVe tHe sOnG.

aNd

hOw mUcH i miSSeD hiM.

hAhA...

i gUeSSeD hE tOOk piTy oN mE

iNsTead oF oUr uSuaL 30 miNs miDniGhT cHaT,

wE eNdEd uP taLkiNg

fOr

1 hR aNd 30 miNs.

jUsT taLkiNg aBouT mY dAy.

hiS dAy.

aNd jUsT hOw mUcH wE miSSeD eAch oThEr.

wHicH wAs niCe.

iT mAdE mE feeL a LiL bEttEr.

bUt aLsO mAdE mE LoVed hiM eVeN mOrE

fOr bEing sO sWeeT.

hAhA...

tO tHiNk

i jUsT tOLd bRyaNt LaST niTe

tHaT

LDR iS nOt sO bAd

aNd

tHaT i’Ve gOttEn uSeD tO iT.

sHeeSH kEbAb.

I gUeSS nOt,

aFteR aLL.

Labels: bAbY, Bi, eMoTiOnAL sOnG, fRuStrAtiOns, HaPPiNeSS, hEaRtaChEs, LDRs, LoVe, PaiN, yOuTuBe

Written on: Sunday, July 18, 2010

Monday, April 26, 2010

bLaH bLaH bLaH... 0 Messages

gAh...!!

tHeRe’s sO mUcH i wAnnA sHaRe wiTh yOu aLL...!!

wHeRe sHouLd i sTaRt?

hMMM...

oOh, oOh...

mY LiL nEPhEw’s bDaY wAs LaSt wEEk!!

aNd mY siS tHrEw a sMaLL pArTy fOr hiM!!

aNd hE hAd tHe mOsT cUtEsT bDaY cAkE eVeR!!

siNcE tHe LiL mOnsTeR wAs bOrN

iN tHe yEaR oF tHe mOO mOO,

tHe tHeMe oF tHe bDaY cAke wAs

bArNyArd aNimALs!!

sO tHeRe wErE mOO mOO, piGGiE, dUcKiEs, cHicKiEs!!

...aBsOLuTeLy aDorAbLe!!

nOt onLy diD tHe bDaY cAkE + cUpcAKeS LoOkeD cUtE...

tHey tAstEd aBsOLuTeLy aMaziNg.

mOiST ricH cHocOLaTe cAKe wiTh cHeeSecAkE fiLLiNg!!

tOppEd wiTh cHoC mOuSSe fRosTinG!!

yUmmY!!

cHeCk oUt tHe LiL bUggEr’s bDaY piCs!!

iSn’T mY HaiR jUsT jEt bLaCk?

oNe oF mY bRoTheR-iN-LaW’s siStErS sAid tO mE...

“oH mY gOd, jUst nOw i cOuLdn’T rEcOgniSe yOu cOs uR hAir iS sO bLaCk!!”

*sWeaT*

sO bEcAuSe oF tHaT
aNd bEcAusE mY dEArEsT LiN
wHo hAs iNsPirEd mE tO gO LighTeR wiTh mY hAir cOLouR...
i aM gOnnA dO sOmEtHinG aBouT iT!!

bUt i wOn’T bE gOiNg bLoNdE aLL tHe wAy!!
I’M nOt tHaT gUtSy LiKe LiN!!
tHaT giRL hAs GoT baLLs!!
i saLutE hEr...!!

wHeN i fiRsT cUt mY bAnGs...
iT wAs bEcAusE i wAs iNsPiReD bY
mY oThEr fAVe ViVi mOdEL, cHikAkO wAtaNaBe!!

hAhA...
tHiS wAs tHe pAgE(sHOwN beLoW)
tHaT rEaLLy gAvE mE tHe nUdGe tO gEt a fuLL-oN bAnGs!!
eVeRytiMe i LooK aT iT, i JuSt gO...
“dAmN, i ReaLLy LoVe hEr bAnGs”
I LoVe hEr eNtiRe hAiR, aCtuaLLy.
iT’s tHicK, fuLL oF vOLuMe aNd i LOvE hEr hAiR cOLoUr hErE...!!
kiNdA aSh bRoWn/cHeStnUt bRoWn... i rEcKon?

iSn’T sHe jUsT heLLa gOrGeOus...

i LoVe hOw sHe aNd LeNa bOtH hAs tHiS vErY sUbtLe sExiNeSS...

miXeD wiTh thiS sEmi-sWeeT cHaRm.

aNd mOsT oF aLL, i LoVe hEr hAiR!!

bOtH oF tHeM aCtuaLLy!!

hEhE...

hErE’s mOrE piCs oF cHiKaKo...

mY tWo fAveS.... cHiKaKo aNd LeNa...

siNcE i wAnnA gO LiGht

aNd gEt a siMiLaR sHaDe

aS cHiKaKo’s iN tHe fiRsT piC,

i wAsn’t sUrE iF i hAd tO bLEaCh mY hAiR

tO gEt tHat cOLoUr.

(wHaDDya tHinK, LiN?)

bUt i’M rEaLLy nOt tHaT cRaZy aBouT bLeaChiNg...

sO i hAd oNLy tWo oPtiOns...

oNe iS tO uSe a 40 vOLuMe cReMe dEveLopEr iNsTeaD...

aNd miX iT wiTh tHe cOffEE bRoWn

jAp hAiR cOLouR i eDi bOuGht

aNd

dYe mY hAir wiTh iT.

tHe pRoCeSS mAy tAke LoNgEr

bUt iT wiLL LeSS dAmAgiNg tO mY hAiR.

tHe oThEr aLteRnAtiVe

wAs tO fiNd aNotHeR jAp bRaNds

LiKe pALtY oR beAuTeeN.

(tHe oNeS LiN wErE tALkiNg aBouT...)

cOs tHeiR hAiR cOLouR cAn rEAdiLy

tUrN bLaCk hAiR tO sOftEr aNd LigHtEr sHaDe.

aS tHe cReaM dEveLopEr hAs hiGhEr cOntEnT oF

hYdRoGen pErOxiDe, iN oThEr wOrdS, bLeAch.

aFteR rEadinG mAny ReViEws,

tHe cOmmEnTs oN tHeSe pRoDuCt wErE nOrMaLLy pOsitivE.

thOugH sOmE sAid pALtY wAs nOt aS gOOd

cOs iT wAs dRyiNg bUt tHe cOLouR diD mANaGe

tO tUrN viRgiN bLaCk hAir tO LiGhtEr sHaDe oF bRoWn...

wHiLe sOmE sAid bEaUtEEn wAs nOt aS gOOd

cOs tHe cOLouR diD nOt sHoW uP aT aLL

bUt iT mAdE tHeiR hAiR fEEL rEaLLy sOfT, sMooTh aNd siLky!!!

sO yEsTerdAy, oFF i wEnT...

iN sEaRcH oF tHe 40 cReMe dEveLoPeR,

pALtY aNd bEaUtEEn!!

aNd oH mA gAWd...

iT wAs a MirAcLe...

jUsT aS i wAs gOnnA giVe uP hOpE...

i fOuNd bEaUtEEn iN gUArdiAn!!!

oH hAppEE dAY!!

aNd i aLsO fiNaLLy gOt mYseLf

a pRoPer hEat pRoTeCTaNt sPraY fOr mY hAiR tOO!!

I hEaR LoTs oF rAve rEviEws oVeR

LuCidO-L dEsiGniNg aQua HaiR cUrL LoTiOn

aiRy fOr bOunCy hAiR...

i cAn’T wAit tO tRy iT oUt!!

I aM sEriOuSLy oVeR tHe mOOn!!

I jUsT cAN’t bELiEvE mY eYeS wHeN i fOuNd bEaUtEEn!!

i cHoSe tHe cOLouR “fReNcH bEigE”...

(wHicH i tHinK iS sUppOsEd tO bE a vErY dArK bLoNde)

cOs i fiGurEd tHaT wiTh mY dArK hAiR...

tHe cOLoUr mAy jUsT cOmE oUt LoOkiNg

a LigHt coFFee bRoWn sHaDe,

...wHicH iS eXaCtLy jUsT wHaT i wAnt.

nOw aLL i gOttA dO iS tO wAiT

fOr mY gReY hAiR tO sTaRt sHoWinG

tHeN i cAn sTaRt

“oPeRaTiOn cHiKaKo”!!

hEhE... :P

aNd i aBsOLutELy jUsT LOvE tHe pAcKaGinG oN tHe bOx!!

fOr eVeRy diFFeReNt cOLouR, tHeRe wiLL bE

a cUtE mAnGa-iNsPiReD cHaRActEr

sPortiNg tHaT pArtiCuLar hAir cOLouR oN tHe bOx.

wHeN i fiRsT sAw tHe giRLy cHaRacTeRs oN tHe bOxeS...

iT rEMiNdDed mE oF tHis aNiMe

i wAs rEaLLy iN LoVe wiTh yEaRs aGo...

NaNa.

I sTiLL LoVe iT tiLL nOw.

aNd wHaT dO yOu kNoW??

tHoSe giRLs oN tHe bOxeS wErE rEaLLy dRaWn bY

tHe sAmE iLLuStRaToR aS NaNa.

YaZaWa Ai...

cAn u sEE tHe siMiLaRitiEs oF NaNa cHaRaCteRs

aNd tHe oNes dRaWn fOr BeAuTeeN?

oH mY gAwD.

I rEaLLy LovE nAnA.

It rEaLLy hOLds a sPeciaL pLaCe iN mY hEaRt.

cOs It kEpT mE gOiNg...

3 yEaRs aGo...

wHeN i fiRsT fOuNd oUt tHaT

Kj aCtuaLLy hAd a giRLfRiEnd

bAcK iN siNgaPoRe

aNd

He wAs bAck iN siNgaPorE

fOr hOLidAys.

I wAs uTTeRLy tOrN aNd dEvAsTaTeD.

iT wAs tHe fiRsT tiMe i eVer eXpeRieNcEd

bEiNg cHeaTeD oN...

I cOuLdn’T sToP cRyiNg...

I hAd tO caLL hAnsTer tO cOmE oVer aNd sTaY wiTh mE.

hAnsTer cAme oVeR aNd cHeeReD mE uP.

hE bRouGht aLonG hiS hArd diSk...

aNd

iNtRodUcEd mE tO wAtcH tHiS aNiMe,

NaNa...

aNd tOLd mE i wAs gOnnA LoVe iT!!

wHicH i rEaLLy diD!!!

NaNa rEaLLy gAve mE sOmEthiNg tO LoOk fOrwArD tO eAch dAy...

As i wOuLd wAit fOr hAnsTer

tO cOmE bAcK fRoM wOrK eVeRydAy...

aNd wE wAtCh iT tOgEthEr eVeRy niGhT

wiTh cOOkie pLaYinG aT oUr fEEt.

nAnA mAdE mE fOrGeT mY pAin aNd sAdnEss

fOr a fEw hOurS

aS wE wAtcHeD iT tOgEthEr.

aCtuALLy nAnA aNd nOdAmE CaNtaBiLe

kEPt mE gOinG...

i sHaRed tEaRs, LaUghTer aNd haPPiNeSS wiTh tHeSe aNiMeS

dUriNg tHoSe sAd tiMeS.

mAn, tHiNkiNg aBouT tHoSe tiMes...

i cAn sTiLL fEEL tHe pAiN aNd sAdnESS.

aNd

iT cAn sTiLL bRiNg tEaRs tO mY eYes.

aNd

iT mAkEs mE miSS mY fRiEndS iN pErTh...

hANsTeR, sHeeNa aNd LiSa.

tHeY rEaLLy sTuCk wiTh mE aLL tHe wAy.

I aM jUsT sO LucKy tO hAve tHeM!!

I rEmEmBerEd i uSeD tO LiSteN nAnA’s sOunDtRaCks,

i uSeD tO tUrN tHe sPeAkErs uP rEaL LOuD...

aS i cUrLeD mYseLf uP iN bEd

aNd cRiEd mYseLf tO sLeeP evEry niTe.

tHeN tOdAy, i wEnt tO yOutUbE

fOr a tRiP tO meMoRy LaNe.

i LOoKeD tHoSe sOnGs uP.

tHe sOnGs tHaT aCCoMpAniEd mE

dUriNg tHoSe MiSeRaBLe tiMes.

aNd tHeN i rEaLisEd sOmeThiNg...

tHe “aNNa” wHo sAng NaNa’s tRaCks...

wAs aCtuaLLy

aNNa tSuChiYa.

(LiN’s fAVe ViVi mOdeL)

hAhA...

bAck tHeN,

i JusT kNeW hEr aS a siNgEr...

aNd

aS tiMe wEnT oN...

i kNeW aNotHer aNNa tSuchiYa...

bUt aS a mOdeL.

jUsT tOdAY,

i jUsT rEaLisEd tHeY wErE tHe sAMe pErSon...

hAhA...

oOps!!

I rEaLLy LoVed tHe sOnGs

aNNa sAng fOr NaNa’s sOunDtRaCks.

tHiS iS pRoBaBLy mY fAVouriTe sOnG bY aNNa... fOr nAnA's sOunDtRacks!!

aNd tHeRe’s aNoThEr siNgEr tHaT sAng fOr NaNa, OLiVia LufkiN...

hEr sOnGs aRe rEaLLy sOOtHiNg aNd cALmiNg...

tHouGh, i dOn’T uNdErsTaNd jAPaNeSe...

bUt tHe mELodiEs oF hEr sOnGs

reALLy diD hELp hEaL mY pAiN bAcK tHeN

biT bY biT...

aNd LisTeNiNg tO hEr sOnGs aGaiN tOdAy...

mAdE mE cRiEd aGaiN.

iT rEmiNdEd mE hOw i fELt aT tHaT tiMe.

bUt i sTiLL LoVe tHe sOnGs sO mUcH!!

sEriOusLy, hAve a LisTeN tO nAnA’s sOunDtRacKs!!

I’M nOt iNtO jAp oR kOrEaN soNgs...

bUt i rEaLLy LoVe tHeSe sOnGs!!

aNywAys, tHaNks fOr LisTeNinG tO mE baBBLe oN aNd oN...

*hUgs*

tAtA fOr nOw...!!

Labels: biRtHdAys, ChUbbY LiN, eMoTiOnAL sOnG, FriEnDsHiP, hAiR, HaPPiNeSS, HeaRt bReaKs, hEaRtaChEs, hUrT, jErKs, jOy, pHoTos, sHoPPiNg, sPLuRgEs

Written on: Monday, April 26, 2010

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

wHeN tHiNgs gO... sHiTTy!!! 0 Messages

yEsTeRdAy...

eVerYthiNg wAs gOinG pReTTy weLL, iF nOt nOrmaL, tHe wHoLe dAy... uNtiL LatEr tHaT eVEniNg wHeN i wAs rEaDiNg a bLoG...

aNd mY hEarT jUsT dRoPPeD.

aUsTraLiA hAs cAnCeLLeD oVeR 20,000 viSa aPPLiCaTiOns.

bEcAusE tHe gOvErNmEnT hAs dEciDeD tO cHanGe iTs iMMigRatioN pOLiCy.

tHeY aRe gOiNg tO cHaNge tHe LisT oF sKiLLeD oCCuPaTiOns.

tHoSe wHo aRe sTuDyiNg thE cOuRsEs

whiCh aRe nO LonGeR iN dEmAnd

wiLL bE giVeN a tEMPoRaRy 18-moNtHs viSa

to fiNd a sPoNsOr fOr tHeiR eDuCaTiOn.

aNd iF tHeY fAiL tO dO sO,

tHeY wiLL bE sEnd hOmE tO tHeiR hOmE cOunTriEs rEsPecTiVeLy.

aLL viSa aPPLicATiOnS aPPLiEd oFFsHoRe

tHrOuGh the gEnEraL sKiLLeD miGratiOn sChEmE

LoDgEd bEfOrE SePteMbEr 2007 wiLL bE cAncELLeD,

cOsTiNg thE tAxpAyErS $14 miLLiOn to rEfuNd 20,000 viSa aPPLiCatiOns.

aPPaRenTLy, sTuDeNtS fRoM iNdiA wiLL bE mOsT aFFecTeD bY tHis cHanGe,

aS MosT oF theM wErE rELyiNg oN “bAcK dOoR” pErMaNeNt rEsiDeNcY

tHrOuGh tHe sKiLLed miGraTiOn sChEmE.

nOw mY qUeStiOn iS...

sO wHeRe dOeS tHaT LeAvE JiMMy...??

Labels: fRuStrAtiOns, hEaRtaChEs, UnLuCkY

Written on: Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Monday, August 4, 2008

LeARniNg tO bE hAppY oN mY oWn aGaiN... 0 Messages

I hAve gOOd nEwS fOr yOu aLL... aNd i ThiNk yOU aLL wiLL bE haPPy tO kNoW thAT i FiNaLLy eNdEd tHinGs wiTh hiM. aNd i tRuLy bELieVe tHiS iS fOr tHe bEsT.

i sUppOsEd aFtEr a mOnTh oF nOt bEinG tOgEthEr, oNe oR bOtH oF uS hAs cHaNgEd iNtO sOmEoNe wE diD nOt iNtEnDeD tO bE... aNd wHeN bOtH oF uS wANt diFFeRenT tHinGs iN LiFe... HaVe diFFeReNt dReaMs aNd gOaLs iN LiFe... yOu kNoW tHaT tHiS rELaTiOnsHiP iS nOt gOinG tO bE hEaDinG aNyWhErE fUrThEr tHaN iT aLreADy hAs.

wHeN oNe oF uS hAs LoSt iNtErESt in tHe oThEr aNd faLLeN ouT oF LoVe witH tHe oTheR, yOu kNoW tHaT tHe rELaTiOnsHiP iS dOOmeD tO fAiL.

wHeN yOu rEaLiZeD oNLy oNe iS FiGhtiNg hArD tO MaKe tHe rELaTiOnsHiP wOrK wHiLe tHe oTheR iS sTRuGGLinG hArD tO bE fRee oF tHe oThER... yOu knOw... tHaT tHe rELaTiOnshiP hAs FaiLed.

sO wHaT dO yOu dO nExT... wHeN aLL hAs FaiLeD? aNd yOu aRe LefT aLoNe tO piCk uP aLL tHe bRoKeN piEcEs oF tHe rELaTiOnsHiP...

tHe oBviOuS aNsWeR wOuLd Be tO mOvE oN, kEEp mOviNg fOrWaRd aNd dO nOt bE tEmPtEd tO LooK bAck oN tHe pAsT.

sOmEhOw iT iS eAsiEr sAiD tHAn dOnE. gOinG tHroUgh tHiS aGaiN fOr tHe sEcoNd TiMe... dOeSn'T mAkE iT aNy eAsiEr.

bUt tHaNk gOd... fOr mY fRiENds... LiNdA, sHeeNa, ReGiNe, TzE vEn, aNdReA aNd aLex... fOr BeiNg tHeRe fOr mE wHeN i nEEdEd tHeM mOsT. ThEy aRe mY sTreNgTh, mY sUppOrT aNd tHeY aRe tHe ReAsOn wHy i cAn sMiLe aNd LaUgH wiThoUt a siNgLe cArE iN tHe wOrLd.

i aM tRyiNg tO gEt uSeD tO tHe iDeA oF bEiNg siNgLe aGaiN. bUt iT's nOt eAsY, eSpEciaLLy wHeN evEryWhErE yOu gO... yOu sEE hAppY cOuPLes BeiNg hAppY dOinG cOupLe-Ly tHinGs... aNd tHeN yOu gEt rEmiNdEd oF tHe pERkS oF bEiNg iN a ReLaTiOnShiP...

aNd wHaT's eVeN wOrSe is tHaT i sTiLL hAvE tO dEaL wiTh tHe fAcT tHaT i RuiNeD mY cHaNce wiTh JiMMy... iMaGiNe hEaRiNg tHe gUy wHo yOu rEaLLy wANtEd tO bE wiTh cOmiNg hOmE wiTh hiS nEw giRLfRiEnD, aLmOsT eVeRyDaY... sOmEtiMeS, jUsT eVeN LisTeNiNg tO hiM cLeaRiNg hiS tHrOaT fRoM mY rOOm... rEaLLy maKeS mE miSS hiM sO mUcH...

sO nOt oNLy dO i hAVe tO dEaL wiTh LoSinG oNe gUY... bUt iMaGiNe yOuRsELf dEaLinG wiTh tHe fACt tHaT yOu LosT bOth gUys... tHaNkS tO mY sTuPiDiTy aNd mY cOnFuSeD sTaTe oF miNd...

aNd wHeN yOu tRy tO fOrGeT yOuR sAdnEss bY tEmPoRaRiLy dRoWniNg yOuR sOrrOws wiTH MuSiC... yOu gEt rEmiNdeD oF tHe mEmOriEs yOu sHaReD wiTh hiM bY tHe sOnGs oR tHe LyRiCs oF tHe sOnGs wHiCh rEfLeCt oN hOw yOu tRuLy FeeL... aNd yOu gO, "yEa, tHaT's eXaCtLy hOw i fEEL..." oR "yeA, tHaT's eXaCtLy wHaT i aM gOiNg tHrOuGh riGhT nOw"...

iT's hArD... bUt i kNow i cAn dO iT!! i hAvE dOnE iT oNcE... aNd i knOw i caN dO iT aGaiN!!!

bEttEr tO bE siNgLe bUt haPPy... rAthEr tHAn tO bE aTTaChEd bUt miSeRaBLe...

WeLL, fiNGers cRoSseD. aNd hErE iS, tO... oNe sTeP tO bEiNg haPPy aGaiN!!!

Labels: HeaRt bReaKs, hEaRtaChEs, hUrT, PaiN

Written on: Monday, August 04, 2008